On Running: admitting injury and getting back up again
Hope you're doing well as we transition into the fall (at least here in New York!). Speaking of transitions, there is a lot of change happening in my personal life as well, so I am going through some sleepless nights, inconsistency in my self care practice and yeah, just organizational life stuff really — but I cannot wait to update you all very soon! In the meantime, this specific post has been overdue, but I didn’t feel ready to share up until now.
Some of you might know and see (yup, been inactive on Strava) that I haven’t been training and running as much as I would like to leading up to this Berlin Marathon. I also wasn’t really ready to speak about it, except from very close friends, I only started talking about ‘not running a marathon this fall’ maybe 2 weeks ago.
Why? What happened? In all honesty, coming off the Brooklyn Half Marathon back in May, I have been feeling some shin pain on and off.
Nevertheless, I ran through it the rest of the month and part of June until I finally had to put a hold on running. I continued to experience pain in my lower left and then suddenly lower right leg. After taking a full week off, I went on to test my body and after completing a 5k, I still felt pain. I had to force myself to stop running. It’s hard. Admitting to an injury is hard. Because you have to be completely honest to yourself, put the damn! ego aside and just listen. Listen to the signs, the pain and to your body.
Yes, I definitely had a week or two where I had to be by myself, not talk to anyone and just cry it all out. When you love something and are passionate about something, it’s so hard to be okay about giving it up. Especially when your life is ‘all about the thing you love and want to do every single day’. Time went by and of course now I realize, it’s not giving up. It is not failing. Every athlete gets injured and it happens to the best of us. Eventually, talking to my friends, finding other ways to stay active, continuing to train and focusing on other aspects of life have been of tremendous help!
About now. I took a step back and re-evaluated and it’s been 2 or 3 months since my last solid run. Today, I have to say, I feel good. I am over that initial ‘sadness’ and learning from past experiences, I am trying to listen to my body better and to be more patient. I can find joy again and it’s so funny how life works, I have met some of the most incredible and inspiring people in the last few months when I wasn’t running. Diving into writing again and other interests such as dance and art has opened up my horizon by so much, I am really happy.
I am still a runner, still an athlete, but more importantly I am still Huyen with all my other passions and knowing that I have so much in front of me + knowing that I will be running the Boston Marathon next year (make sure to apply and register this week if you did qualify :) helped as well. At the end of the day, the sport is there to enjoy, not to burn myself down!
Very happy to build differently right now including some other activities (lots of strength training) and looking forward to all the new adventures!
Stay positive friends, there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Time to appreciate the body more and take nothing for granted.
FYI: I am still heading to Berlin this weekend to come meet, hang out, but more so cheer on and support all my friends who are running. Cannot wait for this little vacation and speak to you very soon!